Word of the Day

chi·can·er·y

/ʃɪˈkeɪnəri, tʃɪ-/ Show Spelled[shi-key-nuh-ree, chi-]

–noun, plural -er·ies.

1. trickery or deception by quibbling or sophistry.

2. a quibble or subterfuge used to trick, deceive, or evade.

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—Synonyms
1.  fraud, deception, knavery. 2.  evasion.

Been a long time. . .

I am definitely about to go in and I really don't care how anyone takes this. These are my thoughts and feelings. If you oppose then that's your opinion which I really don't care about at this moment. It has been a long time coming and today it finally hit the fan. Sad thing to say is that I am glad it is finally over. Why take negativity further in life with me.?! It's good to nip it in the bud in the beginning before it spills overboard. Right? Even if no one answers my questions I have answered them myself in my head. I was told this pass weekend even if it is good for you it still can hurt you. Your mind and heart in a situation can play opposing roles. Throughout the 5 semesters that I have attended VCU I have learned more and more about myself everyday. I've noticed some positives and a lot of negatives within my personality. Everything that you do effects someone. No I am not a goodie too shoes nor am I made up of pure evil. One problem that I do have is bottling emotions up and not letting people know how I feel. This is such a bad trait to carry because it can effect my bonds with people in the long run by not speaking up on how I feel. BUT. . . this is my way of handling issues when I do not want to be a part of childish acts. Therefore I keep to myself. Yes I know that this is something that I have to work on, but at the end of the day I still have to remember that everyone is different and accept things differently.

*Middle finger goes here. . . oh yeah along with my index finger, Deuces*

After All...

It is now 12:57 a.m. on a Sunday night. I have one class tomorrow so I'm not too worried about going to bed at this moment. Sitting here looking at my phone and waiting for it to vibrate I've been questioning myself. "When you're in a situation and it's not what you thought that it would be do you try to correct it or do you just let it go?" It's been a long time coming and now the moment is slowly approaching. I am happy, but the most common thought that comes to mind is "Is this what I've been waiting for?" Nothing is really bad about it I've just been listening to everything around me and I've been comparing it to my situation. That's what I'll call it. "My Situation". You're never supposed to compare things because everyone is different. I actually enjoy what I've been doing its just that I want to travel on a new adventure. Well I'm really unsure on what to do. It's mind over matter. Emotions over thoughts. Confusing right? Well its been this way for a few years now. I'm moreso content, but I want to know will things get BETTER than what they are? I think that I am ready to try something new with whats present.

Strip Tease

This is not your normal strip tease! 

When you hear "strip tease" you tend to think about the removal of ones clothing. Well not here. Day after day my personality and individuality is being tugged at by the walls of Richmond, VA. You would think that my character was being stripped away from my body. I will not let Richmond succeed in doing so. Every chance that I get I remind myself that I will remain the same person regardless of my surroundings. 

     Nothing can change who I am inside. I am filled with laughter, giggles, smiles and a beating heart. Slowly but surely I feel myself mature a little each day. My thoughts are all "BSCRMLDAE" up in my head. I try to grasp different thoughts and match them together because none of them seems to make sense. Keeping my composure is becoming harder each day, but I am one to look over things and see good in every aspect. My mind will forever hold my thoughts. Try to peel a layer back and you will still see the SAME me. It's as if nothing changed!

No Ordinary Survey?!?!

Take it how you want to. This Questionnaire can be observed in so many different concepts. Raging emotions pushed this out of me. Being stranded in Richmond is slowly taking effect:

Who - Made it this way?
What - Do I have to do?
When -Will it happen?
Where - Will it all take place?
Why - Is it this way?
How - Can I change your outlook?

One day hopefully these questions will be answered.

H.A.G.S.

Have a great summer... (pssshhh)

While everyone is enjoying their Summer '10 vacation I am stuck in the crevices of Richmond,VA. Cobblestone and brick walls are my current surroundings filled with the sun rays that beam down on me in the morning. I am not one accustomed to being bored. Relaxation is comfortable, but being at a complete stand still is not in my personality. Trying new things will take over my Summer '10 experience. This Tuesday I attended a RAVE, for the first time, at the Hat Factory in downtown Richmond. Out of my league, but tons of fun!!! Not your typical party but I definitely enjoyed "something new". It ranged from dancing UNICORNS - Stripper poles and CAGES!!! New adventures coming soon...

Hopefully I will start work in a couple of days, but I plan to make the best of any situation.

"Make a virtue of necessity."

End of my finger tips...

So I've decided to recreate my blog after being inspired by a few of my peers that attend Virginia Commonwealth University. Day after day I think to myself that I would like to buy a diary and write in it. Instead I decided to result to the web. Billions of thoughts run threw my head daily. To some I am confusing, but I am not promising that after reading my posts that you will completely understand me. Bare with me... because sometimes I barely understand myself.

"From a far, it seems I have it all."